I'm here again...
Heard news abt someone frm our batched juz died.
This made me wonder
how did I managed 2 survive till 2dae.
I wanted 2 die since I was 10 right?
at 10 is coz of family
then at sec sch is coz of frens
then wat am I doing here right now???
Sometimes I feel tat being alive right at the mmt is a miracle thing
Considering the shit I have 2 go thru.
It is seriously a miracle tat I'm alive right now.
Looking at the things I've done make me wonder
r they worth it...
Going into fandom is smth I will nvr regret as it is one of the biggest reason I'm alive atm
Slitting?
IDK though
It brought momentary relieve
Sometimes I really wanna go back 2 slitting
Idk how 2 express it
Bt I guess I dun regret doing it.
I may go back 2 it 1 day
I dunno
Bt I really wonder
Will I feel pain now
Or will I feel relieve now...
TBH I sorta missed the feeling
The feeling of a blade on ur wrist
The pain tat brought me relieve.
Suddenly I feel so tired
Tired of everything
YT said b4 tat I wun start a quarrel with anyone
Coz I'm understanding
Bt I gt tired too
Everytime is I understand the others
Then when will someone understand me?
I really wanna throw everything down n heck bout everything
If I could leave
I'll leave without any teeny weeny bit of hesitation
Even though I know going to another country 2 start a new life is difficult
I will still choose 2 leave
Go 2 another place
Start new life
make new frens
do different stuff
as much as I will miss the ppl here
bt the crap I'm handling makes me wanna leave immediately
Go 2 a place where nobody knows me
N start a total new life

Shall stop this post b4 I gt more emo.
Bye~

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