Tonight is one of those nights where i feel damn shitty
Not worthy of anything
Lonely
And upset at myself

I don't even know why I would feel like this
It's just one of those days where the past will come back and haunt me
Reminding me of everything that I want to forget
Everything that I want to bury and move on with life

In my head right now
Thoughts like slitting
Drinking and crying
Are floating around

I tell myself again and again
Not to go back to slitting
I hope it is working
And the thought will go away soon

The only nice thing that happened tonight was
When I told him I was feeling damn shitty
He actually tried to cheer me up
I swear this is the best feeling ever

It made me feel less alone but still shitty
Nevertheless
I appreciate everything he did
It did put a small smile on my face

How can I put everything down for real and move on?
I really want to
Forget everything and carry on with life
Never feeling shitty and scared again

That day I realized
I need to let go of y'all
In order to let go of those memories
So I tried

Just when I thought I did
Y'all will appear here and there
Appearing from time to time
Reminding me of everything that has happened

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