I feel so lost right now
Like I don't know what's next
School or work
Not sure if I'm ready to face the world yet
Quite sure that I don't want this to be the start of my future
But not sure about what I want in uni
Or rather quite sure until everything got messed up
I was so sure that I want to study TV and Broadcast
It's just pathetic that we don't have a degree here that majors in TV and Broadcast
Fuck
I feel so scared right now
It's not even a joke
Like what if I don't get into a uni?
Or what if this is really the start of the rest of my life
I definitely want to achieve more
But it seems like everything is not going my way
I kinda really want a break from everything
But sadly society doesn't allow it
This is so fucked up on so many level

Every time I try to make a move so I can be more independent
You just have to pull me back
For fuck's sake
I'm turning 20 this year
Back when I want to work so that I can earn some money
You say no
And now I don't wanna do shits
You want me to go and find work
What the actual fuck are you thinking?
I'm so done with everything right now
I just want to go overseas and have fun
Like really have fun
Relax and not think about anything
This is making me way too stressed

I really and truly feel lost about every single thing that is happening in my life right now
Have no one to talk to also
You don't give any fucks coz your dramas are more important than anything
Because you are fucking right about every single thing
Just because you are my mom
Fuck this bull crap man
Just wait till the day I leave
I'll make sure to not come back
AT ALL

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