Death always makes me wonder
Who will be the one at my wake crying for me if I died
It is kinda sad that I cannot really think of a person that will be there for sure
Too many fucked up things in my life
Friendships that I wanna give up so that my life can be easier
Been thinking of this for quite a while now.
Do I really wanna end those friendships that I have
They are really precious to me and I have to say
The ones that gave me the most pain in my life.
I really don't wanna live in fear from now on
Fear from the fact that I might just receive a message from either one of them
Demanding things from another
And they have to talk through me
Just because they don't wanna talk to each other
The whole incident tormented me for around 2 years already
I really want it out of my life.
I really don't want to be tangled in this anymore
I have to say
This incident scarred me real bad
It made me not want to make anymore friends
Just because I'm scared that this happen again in my new friendship
Both of them seems good and happy after the whole thing ended.
Yes it ended.
It ended before
It had a relapse and it ended again
I don't want another relapse.
We are all tormented by this
And I don't know if an end will really come
I kinda wanna stop living in fantasy and step back to reality
But reality is a harsh thing for me
So harsh that I don't know if I have any true friends out there
I'm so tired.
So fucking tired
Can the end be the real 'THE END' to this whole thing?

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